Lennon has a real hard time with being satisfied. He says he’s hungry, and it takes 5 minutes to figure out what he would like to eat, then you fix it, and then he doesn’t want it. This is the real frustrating part of our daily routines.

You monitor his food, make suggestions of what he can have, he decides on something but then does not eat it. Then you have to make sure he does eat and drink, because when he stops doing those…well his ammonia will go up…however I must say the last three weeks have been almost unreal. We have been home without interruption. But I still don’t feel like that I can breathe any easier because it can turn any minute.

I recently had a conversation with his teacher and they are now in the process of trying to figure out what to do for next year. He is nowhere near ready to go to kindergarten, but he cannot be held back. No medication (as of yet) has worked to keep him focused for anything more than 5 minutes, though I do see some sloooooooooowwwwwww progress.

The frustrating part is that he is not maturing, but he is functioning. His speech while not perfect has improved tremendously. He still has a low-tone in his reflexes and more often than not requires MY undivided attention because no one else will do.

He very easily becomes obsessed with one thing and has difficulty accepting that it will not happen such as playing the video game, which wants to change from game to game. It’s like he wants to do everything so that he has not missed out on anything…because the reality is that one bad spill it could be over…

But that is why the transplant is in the process…Yesterday he had his MRI of the abdomen, another blood test and another visit with the doctor. Lennon did really well accepting that we were not staying there for the night. He did ask if he was sick and if that is why we went to the hospital. So he does get some of it and probably recognized that he wasn’t feeling ill.

The transplant is scary and I am attempting to only keep the positive things in mind, but can’t help think about the what-ifs…and man I can’t tell you what it feels like to imagine not having your loved one around..and I hope that I will not have to face that before it is my time to leave this physical place we call earth.

I must say that all the hospitalizations and me missing time from work for 2 months has messed up our finances. We are struggling to catch up on the things that fell behind and the light at the end of the tunnel doesn’t seem to be getting any closer. For anyone reading and following this blog, I don’t want charity but I do encourage to purchase my artwork and jewelry instead. I don’t like asking for help, but perhaps I can promote my artwork and create some additional funds to help us out.

My family has been super good in dealing with the bare minimums, but Christmas is too close to not worry about not having anything for them…oh boy did I make any sense… Please if you are inclined to give…do it by purchasing one of my pieces at Three Times Chaos.

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