I miss running but I get to crochet

I miss running but I get to crochet

I miss running. I wanted to challenge myself and see if I could achieve 2021 miles this year – and I’ve already been a bit behind at the beginning of April – but then the thing I dreaded happened.

I went on a run not just to focus on my challenge goal and regular exercise routine but I had just a difficult moments just the day before and for the best release and processing happens during a run.

What I didn’t count on is how have that event actually impacted me and so instead of focusing on my run and pay attention to the trail my head was so consumed by all of my feelings that I tripped and boom sprained my ankle.

Initially I thought that I may have broken it and that could have been even more problematic due to a previous double break on that particular ankle when I was a teen.

It’s been about a week now and I am annoyed I can’t run yet – I miss running. It’s the an outlet I look forward to anytime I get to do it. And while walking isn’t the end of the world and still helps me get miles and exercise in – it’s just not the same.

Insert big ol’ sigh.

I know that I’ll be able to get back to it in a couple of weeks but patience has never been a thing I was fond of when I wanted to do something.

I suppose I will work on an afghan order while I wait for my ankle to heal proper and look into alternative ways to work out that aren’t going to cause more damage and so I won’t just wither away 😂

This afghan is going to be a full size blanket with granny squares using these three colors.

Well these squares aren’t going to crochet themselves!

Changes in latitude – a move ahead

Changes in latitude – a move ahead

Changes in latitude = changes in attitude! 31 days and my partner is Texas bound. I will be following in 2022 and there are reasons for that.

Lennon has one more year of high school left and he’s also transitioning into adulthood and as someone who has a disability, there are a lot of things that happen for him. Since he is in a specific program for his schooling we thought it is best if he’d finish out the year before the big move. I could have probably figured it out in Texas but with a pandemic still having over our heads as well – we are certainly choosing a path that makes sense for Lennon. He will get to graduate with people he knows and that matters.

And yeah he is going from pediatric to adult in all of his medical care as well and there are some things that are better addressed while we are still here and get things organized before the move so that the transfer and changes will be easier. This will also help his medical team to make the proper referrals as well as care requirements and connect us with the best hospital and transplant team in Texas.

Changes in latitude

It’s tough not being able to go yet this year and pick out a house and our land – the goal (at least for me) is to have 10 acres and a house that isn’t a fixer upper. We will probably have a few animals such a horse and a donkey and maybe even some chickens. All of those things aren’t really set in stone yet with the exception for the land part.

A year ago at the start of the pandemic, I didn’t think about the changes in latitude and now I almost wish it was 2022. This year will bring some challenges for sure but I also believe that in the end, it will be one of the best ideas we’ve ever had.

Petra’s 2021 Goals

Petra’s 2021 Goals

Even though it’s already the end of January I wanted to share my 2021 goals with you. I actually spend the entire month focusing on my content for the year and getting myself organized.

Once again, life and the last year have put in perspective what’s important to me and 2020 was familiar to us as we had socially distanced and isolated ourselves after Lennon’s liver transplants to keep him safe. And somewhere in the middle, my partner had emergency surgery sewing an artery back together that he accidentally nipped while at work, leading us to some life-changing decisions.

When the pandemic hit and everything shut down I started retreating from social media and reduced the scrolling. I focused on supporting my clients and did a lot more art.

Petra's 2021 Goals

I also created My Rebel Goals Workbook and I know I will be more successful by setting goals and reviewing them. It’s been marinating for a few years and I think it was just waiting on the proper title.

And like I do, I decided to open the doors to Rebel Kickstart where together we can follow our dreams and focus on our goals. This is a 3-months mastermind co-working intensive.

So here’s a roundup of my 2021 goals!


  • Create 12 pyrography tutorials
  • Create pattern library
  • Create 6 pyrography courses
  • Design 12 crochet patterns
  • Create 6 crochet courses
  • Monthly pages for Coloring Creatives


  • Run or walk a total of 2021 Miles
  • Workout regularly – run or on the rebounder
  • Go hiking once a month
  • Find my own version of healthy
  • Get a physical
  • Go to the Dentist


  • Support Lennon in his senior year
  • Help Lennon adjust to being an adult
  • Regular zoom chats with family


  • Declutter inside and donate what’s not wanted
  • Declutter outside and clean up the property
  • Get things organized for our big move in 2022


  • The Rebels Den – Host 2 Summits
  • The Rebels Den – Host 5 Online giveaways
  • The Rebels Den – Help 3 people host a giveaway or summit
  • Create a how-to for coloring pages
  • Create a blogging course
  • Create a book course
  • Help 3 people start a blob or business
  • The Rebels Den – Daily Blog Posts
  • Petra Monaco – 3 weekly blog posts
  • Revamp + organize funnels
  • Run the Rebel Kickstart 3 times
  • Petra Monaco – Inventory and update website


  • Double my income from last year
  • Continue to remove/reduce debt
  • Donate to Urea Cycle Foundation


  • Finish my Phd in Metaphysics
  • Finish my art therapy course

This may seem ambitious to some but one thing I learned in 2020 is that the less time I spend on social media and just focus on want to do things are happening. I am not against social media but I do know that it can be a huge time suck because remember before all of it that I was doing so much more on the daily.

And I didn’t start a business just to have my time sucked by social media but rather to create the life I want.

If it’s been crossed off its’ been achieved!

  • Will guide you through the 3 R’s – Reflect, Review, Reset
  • Coloring pages to help you tune into yourself for  active meditation
  • Set your 2021 Intentions + Vision
  • Choose your Be, Do and Have Goals
  • Acknowledge the Habits to create and break for your success
  • Develop your own personal self-care routine that works for you
  • Monthly calendar template + journal pages
  • Acknowledge your Support Team, what you need/want to learn
Balancing productivity with doing nothing

Balancing productivity with doing nothing

Balancing productivity with doing nothing does not come easy. There is no question that I could be productive for 6-8 hours a day, working, working and working some more. And looking at my list from yesterday, I managed to record 4 videos for my journal course I will be releasing soon, met with my accountability partner, and decided to launch a Patreon community.

Yep, I veered of my to-do list! I didn’t review my social media nor did I work on the wood-burning. Instead, I chose to honor my own needs and take a nap instead which was followed with a day of chilling on the futon and watching crime shows.

I believe that if you are able to manage 3 things out of 5 that it’s still a productive day. I don’t think you need to be hard on yourself to check everything off on the to-do list.

This morning, I officially launched the Patreon and mapped out a schedule that gives me a bit of flexibility such as Mastermind sessions will be during the first week of the month – and exact date/time are to be determined as we get closer to the date.

I don’t really want to work 6-8 hours a day either unless I am utterly inspired and can’t stop working instead I want to create for 3-6 hours every day and know that I have done a great job checking things off my to-do list. I have 7 days a week to get things done. And while I don’t work on client projects on the weekend, doesn’t mean I can’t work on my own stuff.

My gratitude for today:

  1. Getting a good night sleep. I managed to sleep almost 8 hours.
  2. For Patreon being an option and opportunity to be of service and help to people
  3. Sunshine even if it’s windy as hell outside right now

I am excited about:

  1. Launching my Patreon even if it feels a bit scary
  2. Getting our property cleaned up and looking good
  3. Today’s Mastermind + Co-working Session

And on my plan for the day is to:

  1. Record the content for my journal course – I have 5 more videos to do
  2. Showing up for the Mastermind and Co-working Session
  3. Therapy for Lennon online to check in
  4. Write and send out newsletter
  5. Spend time on my art project

Balancing productivity with doing nothing is no easy feat and it took me a long time to be okay with doing nothing. Not every moment of the day needs to be spend hustling because the mind needs a break from all the doing!



Not a soul awake (in my house) at 4:30 in the morning

Not a soul awake (in my house) at 4:30 in the morning

Thunderstorm came through at 4:30 waking me from my slumber and not a soul awake in my house other than myself. I tossed + turned for about an hour before I said to hell with it and got up to make my first cup of coffee.

And honestly I like this quiet mornings – not that my mornings are obnoxiously loud. Lennon will wake about in about an hour or 2, giving me a bit of time to record some videos for a course I am working on. But for now there’s not a soul awake.

But in the meantime, I sat with my planner this morning and looked at the blank space of my gratitude list and I vividly recall times when coming up with 3 things, let alone one seemed like the biggest mountain to climb. And yet, during this last month, it hasn’t been a challenge at all.

My gratitude for today:

  1. My new futon mattress because while sleeping on an air-mattress has been great, it’s been noisy with a chance of deflation. It’s also giving me a place to chill and work from if I so choose – like right now as I write this.
  2. Lennon taking time out of his busy gaming schedule to learn about the weather and getting a 100 on a quiz. My only request during this time has been to spend one hour learning. I am not a great home-school parent.
  3. Thunderstorms and rain – even though it disrupted my sleep, the rain watered my garden and I don’t have to go out there this morning to do it myself.

The next section in my planner asks me what I am excited about – and again that in moments feels too big and overwhelming but then I focus on what my current life is and the things I am focusing on.

I am excited about:

  1. Getting our home and property cleaned up and decent looking. It’s been a bit of a challenge honestly but I am taking the time and nice spring days to do some proper spring cleaning and organizing.
  2. Today I plan on recording the video content for a new course I am about to release for The Rebels Academy. Since journaling is such a big part of my life, I thought that perhaps someone would be interested in getting started.
  3. Turning this blog more into a personal journal/diary of sort. I like the idea of sharing with you my ways of handling this life and my every day being. I could totally use The Rebels Den for it, but that’s more of a personal development + business blog and while I do get personal there, it’s been shifting to being a magazine and I am good with that.

There’s an advantage for being up early and not a soul awake because it gives me quiet time.

Quiet time to just sit for a moment and feel into my gratitude and excitement.
Quiet time to reflect where I am and what I want to be, do and have.
Quiet time to ponder the plans for the day and map out a few projects.

And on my plan for the day is to:

  1. Brainstorm a few blog post ideas for Create a Handmade Life
  2. Review my social media content
  3. Record the videos for my journal course
  4. Meet with my accountability partner
  5. Work on the train pyrography art project

I hope you have an amazing day and may you find gratitude and something to be excited about.



Staying focused while the world is falling apart

Staying focused while the world is falling apart

It can be challenging staying focused while the world is falling apart. I’ve been intentionally spending time away from social media – with minor exceptions when it comes to my businesses or I had something humorous to share.

I simply can’t handle the sharing of posts without credible sources and it all feels like a bad soap opera with the whole he-said she-said – and then of course conspiracies are rising up like a bad fiction novel that forgot to put the scenes in some kind of order so that it actually makes sense.

We had lab work at the beginning before social distancing was the new way of life and I am happy to say all looks well! And since Lennon’s school been out and we are social-distancing as much as possible – I live with 2 essential workers – I’ve been spending a lot of time outside working in the yard.

Something that tripped me up early on is the bare shelves in the grocery store and I wondered how I would be feeding our family. My past trauma of abandonment and neglect came to the forefront and just how fearful I am about not having food. Staying focused on the lack outside of my home wouldn’t benefit my own well-being, let alone my family.

What’s been helpful to find my balance again is to plant our vegetable garden and keep at least 2-3 weeks worth of food in the home. It’s keeping my anxiety at bay and I feel tremendously better as I am acknowledging just what causes me anxiety and what I can do to heal it and alleviate it.

In the meantime, Lennon has been perfectly happy in his room with only stepping out when he needs to use the bathroom or get some food. I pondered taking him on trails to get exercise but with his immune suppression and past health challenges, I am just not comfortable in doing any of that. As of now, he’s not complained about missing school as he actively video chats with his friends.

And it go me thinking, we’ve been here before – maybe not in the scheme of things with the whole world participating. But after his transplant we limited the places we went and stayed away from people who were dealing with a cold or anything like it. I think we are able to find comfort in this knowing we came out of it on the other side – but also still worries and concern for Lennon – or anyone in our family – to get infected with Covid-19.

And so here we are, Lennon is in his room video-chatting, gaming, reading and doing some school work, while I am taking care of clients to help them manage their business online and achieve their goals. And I am able to spend a ton of time outside and creating art.

Every morning, I sit down with my planner to review 3-4 things I am grateful for, 3 things I am excited about and what my focus is for that day – because staying focused on my own dreams + goals is pretty important to me.