I am so frustrated with myself


I keep telling myself that I won’t hide anymore.

I keep telling myself I have a powerful message to share and I must be visible.

Every day the same spiel in my head and then I allow the ball to drop.

What a crapshoot!

We all have our patterns of limiting beliefs and thoughts and know that shit gets in the way so damn much.

The most frustrating part is I know I do it ALL THE DAMN TIME. And I am sick and tired of hiding.

Done sugar-coating everything. Done doing it prim and proper for fear of offending someone because I used a curse word here and there. Fuck that shit!

Here’s the thing I know I inspire people every single day but I stopped inspiring myself somewhere along the way.

Yesterday I had full intentions to getting some things done and yet I laid in bed all day, bingeing on my favorite crime show leaving me frustrated when I went to bed.

But thank goodness for waking up this morning and recognizing my frustration and thank goodness for my morning journaling routine. It really helps me so much on being clear and bringing myself back to alignment.

I am about change.

If something isn’t working then you must change it.

With that comes listening to your intuition and recognizing your frustration.

You know when you are not aligned. You know when something isn’t working and it feels so freaking hard. You know when self-doubt and fears are supporting your procrastination.

You also know that you are in control and that you can do something about it.

This clarity I have about who I am is strong. We all know when something doesn’t feel good and when we get lost in being anything else but ourselves because it feels shitty as hell.

Feeling frustrated is actually a good thing because it is testing how long you are willing to live with that frustration. It is testing you how long you will play to the beat of someone else’s drum or if you are ready to step full on into your own power.

It’s asking us whether or not we are serious about our dreams or if we just want to hide ourselves away in a box with no one actually being able to see us.

I admit, it’s hard finding the greatness in the moment of frustration but stepping into this awareness this morning I noticed my heart beats louder and faster.

It really boils down to listening to your own intuition, to follow your heart and really not giving  a shit about what anyone else thinks about your dreams, your life and most importantly you.

It’s none of your business what they think anyway because whatever you are stirring up in them is their issue and never your own. I’d like to think that when people have an opinion about you, your dreams or your life, you are stirring the pot for them because some parts of them can’t even imagine leaving that comfortable little box.

You have to choose for yourself whether or not your dream is worth it.

Whether or not you believe in yourself and in your dream so much that instead of staying awake frustrated you are staying awake thinking about how you can change the world and make an impact.

I don’t have to convince anyone about my dream and neither do you!

So use your frustration to go within, to listen to your intuition, decide whats not working and make a choice to embrace change.

Be willing and committed to leave your box of conformity and play that drum however you like.

You must run your life the way you want. No question about it.

Not only that you must believe in your dream and yourself.

And even if it feels to damn scary you know you must do it anyway because shit ain’t no one else doing it – why the hell not you?

Getting frustrated with your life and your dreams is your catapult to greatness because it challenges you to turn up the heat and be the one you are meant to be.

Move out of that box, wear your mismatched sox and shine that light of your so brightly that people will want sunglasses.

So get on with your dreams already and stop playing small in this world.

Are you ready?

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