Fear and anger have rooted within you because of the pain and hurt you have experienced. Some of them you still remember while other’s have blocked themselves from your memory.
I used to be a very angry teenager.
I was angry at the world, the foster care system, the counselors, my parents and even myself.
I was angry at the struggle of trying to fit in and I was afraid no one would ever love me.
It haunted me and led me to make some potentially fatal and at least life to altering decisions.
It’s through each decision and experience I became a little more aware. A little more in tune with me. A little more clear about what I stood for. A little more knowledgeable about what is holding me back.
Forgiveness is never easy and truly it isn’t about forgiving the other person, but to heal yourself through love and compassion.
Perhaps there are some things that can never be excused and it’s even more challenging to put yourself into someone else’s shoes to understand their thoughts and the actions that followed.
But something I learned over the years is that we all have some kind of ball of negative experiences that keeps itself chained to our ankles. And that in each moment, everyone is truly just doing the best they can with the knowledge and awareness that they know how.
It took me 30 years to figure this out. And even though there are still stories and experiences that come up and trigger some kind of anxiety within me and make me aware of the pain, I lean into compassion.
I lean into the pieces that help me take back control.
I lean into the parts of me that allow me to see that I am likable, loveable, brilliant in my own right. And nope you can’t always seem them because when you are blinded by the pain and the hurt and fueled by the anger, we can’t.
And nope you can’t always seem them because when you are blinded by the pain and the hurt and fueled by the anger, you can’t.
It’s time to start healing yourself through forgiveness and compassion and start loving the parts about you.
- Start by making a list of the memories that haunt you.
- Practice Ho’oponopono
- Cross each line off your list after you practiced the following 4 steps
- Burn or flush the list
Step 1: I’m sorry
You are in control of your thoughts and also responsible for them. It’s easy to blame yourself for somehow being at fault for the experiences in your life. And it’s painful. And any feelings you have after the event will fuel your guilt.
These feelings and emotions may have caused you to
- hate yourself which shows up in addictive behaviors
- fear within and around you which you numb through food, drugs or alcohol
- angry and you don’t know how to rein it in so you lash out
Start there and say you’re sorry. That’s it!
Step 2: I forgive you
Don’t worry about who you’re asking. Just state “I forgive you”.
Step 3: Thank you
Say thank you for being the best you can be in each moment. Thank the universe. Say thank you for what you said I forgive you too.
Step 4: I love you
Say I love you. Feel it. There is nothing as powerful as Love.
I practice his forgiveness prayer often. Anytime a memory comes up that startles me, that makes me wonder, shows the emotions of fear and anger.
It’s important that you don’t fear your emotions.
Acknowledge them, explore the cause and practice forgiveness.